Sunday, August 30, 2009

recession blues

Many say ' I'm confused about taking a decision' .but now for me , confused seems like a simple word. Is there any other one word substitution for - heights of confusion and dilemma denoting higher degree of complexity..!! well, m curious because tat 's exactly my state now.To be more specific I'm in a intermediate state, like the meta stable state in laser emission. Unlike meta stable state my state seem to last for a longer period. Let me come to the point, I want a job does somebody hear me?? I promise I ll be good faithful and hard working. Don't anybody want to hire me?? All angels out there please listen to my prayers.Well I got a job, a core job in a start up company, but dint take it up coz of pressure from all sides raising questions like :
1. what wil u do with 10K salary?is it enough?
2. why are u asking ur daughter to join a company which nobody has heard of ? Its not famous.
3. why should she go to a far place for such a low pay?
so I dint take it up :( I thought never in my life I' m gonna get an opportunity like this .One reason being ,I' m a 7 pointer with zero experience anI i did explain the same to all near and dear but was of no use. 
I want  a job because, I want experience, I want to learn life,learn business and money will come 
last in the list !
    But I'm actually learning life,  guess how.. I go outdoor  see a lot of people of various occupation toiling everyday to earn their living e.g bus conductors,vendors, receptionist,waitors, drivers etc. no matter what job they do  they 're all experienced and have mastered their respective occupations well. In the end they 're all equal.No occupation can be looked down on.
     Now why am I grumbling so much?? couple of days back I had been to cafe cofee day to meet my friends who are leaving to the U.S. we had lots of fun teasing each other, recollecting hilarious incidents that happened in college and also there was something whcich everybody did except me ,they  all talk shop. thats when I realised what do I have as career options, to speak about? soon my heart and ming started  a debate, my heart says ' well u have your talents to bank on my gal' my mind interrupts and says 'remember wat people advised you?? wat future do u have  as an artist/designer  your re not gonna make quick money !!'
     People can give umpteen number of suggestions and ideas, but we can follow only one. We cant please all of them can we?? These are one of the many times I ve felt why am I in india where most parents send their children for the rat race called engineering , when you win in this race  your not the only winner and when you lose you re not the only loser . there are lakhs of people on both the sides, but what about the people who are in between - they are billion in number who don know know what to do.Whether to start the race once again with a different set of participants although they know half of them are in the same boat as they re in, or switch to something else. In any case there will be spectators around to cheer you , boo you or simply keep mum.I' m one of the billion , thinking now whether to start again or switch to something different which again depends on my abilities. 
so the search is on, the hunt is on!! I wish I realize what I'm destined for. Though my destiny to be, is something which I ve never imagined it's okay I'm ready to stride the path.I wont be tired of searching as long I have a bunch of folks around me who will always be my energy boosters.